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[aleathiel]

Christ, I just cried my eyes out reading this (serves me right for asking for FPS!). Someone post something cheerful - quick!

EDIT:

Actually, fuck that. I don't want to lose this feeling yet. You know how there's enjoyment of many levels (and what would I be doing in the fandom if I couldn't surround myself with this!) and yet sometimes you read something that gets deeper than that?

I can't be the only one who sometimes finds herself so absorbed in a fic that I'm practically in a trance and even when I have to stop reading, or get to the end, I'm still not completely in touch with the real world around me.

That feeling - remember watching The Fellowship of the Ring for the first time? That complete intense love and awe?

I think the first time I found it in fandom was with Stewardess's Shining One. But since then I have found a whole list of others. Fics that inspire that hang-on-just-stay-completely-motionless-and-savour-the-moment feeling.

What fics can bring that feeling out in you?

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[mellacita.livejournal.com]

capella's was one of the first lotr fics I read, before I even got comfy in rps.

Yeah. It's cathartic and devastating and lovely.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

It's cathartic and devastating and lovely.

Yes, exactly. Despite being a completely different pairing, it does actually remind me of Shining One. Perhaps because both have a whole series after them (I haven't read Capella's yet) to explore and develop what happens to the characters, even though you know that part of the arc of their story is closed because you've read the end.

[firiel77.livejournal.com]

The first one that affected me like that was probably "Wrong to Love You" by jennabiding. I can remember carrying it around with me all day and thinking about parts of it.

There've been more, but can't think offhand. More recently I'd have to say that Abuse of Power got to me in the same way.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Abuse of Power will always have a special place in my heart because reading it can be a bit like watching LOTR after seeing the making-ofs. I can remember comments I left in the betad files and so on. I think that perhaps I never quite reached the awe level with AOP because I betad it and - although there are moments like the love answering machine message - that gave me heartbeat pauses, I was always reading it with an eye to continuity and grammar and so on, so I didn't have quite the same experience. Not that I would have had it any other way, you understand. Obviously I was thrilled to beta it.

[lady-razzle.livejournal.com]

I was about to suggest that if you wanted to see if anythign could change, I could break the cycle and let you not beta the sequel.
But then I realised you'd probably just sit there getting irritated because it wasn't betad properly.
Of course, the offer still stands. *doesn't think for a minute you'll take it.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Nonononono! Absolutely not.

[julia-goolia.livejournal.com]

I've bookmarked that badboy for future reference. Thanks.

Fics that make my heart want to explode and BLEED all over the place:

-Where I First Called Out His Name: by crimsonsenya

-Wherever, Wherever, Wherever You Are: by _ming

-Fits, Starts: by _ming

And ones I can't forget:

- Electrical Storm: by Ancabell

- Thoughts In Flight: by arrowthroughme

I keep throwing fics (v/o this time) at you, but its cos I keep thinking of more. I love these ones above. Some of them make me want an RL slash friend so badly so I can TALK to someone in person about what I just read. Others just put me into hibernation mode, alone with my thoughts.

Fics that inspire that hang-on-just-stay-completely-motionless-and-savour-the-moment feeling.
I got that from Lady E's A/L fic Leaves of Gold. Its that sorrowful feeling that you just don't want to shake. It taps into you so much that you feel like it can't be that bad of a thing cos its so REAL. I've come to learn that listening to Elliot Smith in those moments just makes things worse.

I remember seeing RotK and being so heart broken that it was over. I didn't know what to do, so I just went running for like an hour cos I couldn't think of anything that made more sense to me than to just jog it out. It started raining on me too, I remeber that.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Ooh, thanks. I'll go have a peek.

[julia-goolia.livejournal.com]

omg. coincidence. i'm reading chapter 1 of the fic you recc'd.

over&out.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Keep tissues handy.

[firiel77.livejournal.com]

Oh goodie. Some rec's I've not seen before. Anymore OB/VM's anyone? :D

[nikkidarling.livejournal.com]

There was a fic I read a long time ago about the boys being in a rock band. I can't remember the title but it had me totally absorbed and feeling like that. Pity it was incomplete.

Abuse of Power has to be the piece that has so powerfully consumed me like that. I can remember loads of tiny little things that made me think about it. The way I sat in silence, just staring at the screen for about 10 minutes, while I let the writing completely consume me.

I really should go back and read the series again.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Ahhh, do you mean the fabulous Unnecessary Evils?

[nikkidarling.livejournal.com]

Yesssss! Oh how that fic consumed me for days!

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

You've seen that there's manips and so on on the site as well as the fic?

[dirtysidekick.livejournal.com]

Many fics bring out either good feelings or ones that make me cry, AOP was one of them.

Also more recently Chalk butterfly, it brings frustration, worry, care and wonder.

And even Early theory, makes me think of the torture both Viggo and Orli are going through

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Yes, I'm a fan of Chalk Butterfly and Early Theory too.

[dirtysidekick.livejournal.com]

How could you not be!

*grins*

whats your email addy?

[dirtysidekick.livejournal.com]

got it now

[perseph2hades.livejournal.com]

kirbycrow's The House of Hurin did that to me recently. It was so relentlessly gripping, full of that powerful duality of dread and attraction. I couldn't stop reading, and flailed when it ended. (I think she's locked all her fics now, so you would have to friend her to read.)

Thank you for linking to that site. It looks absolutely delicious.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Ooh, that's one I don't know. I may need to do a little investigating. I think I'm re-becoming (if that's possible) a fan of FPS. It's kind of odd to think that I've never really written FPS for LOTR - only odd drabbles that don't count.

[taureliell.livejournal.com]

Elizabeth's Vigorli Chronicles - Fumbling Towards Ecstasy was the one that did it for me.
And then AOP.

I remember the end of FOTR so well, there was complete silence in the crowded cinema, no one moved to grab coats, rustled papers, nothing. We were all just awestruck. I'd never experienced that at the end of a film before.

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

I know. And then seeing it for the second time I was so incredibly tense, not wanting to miss a single second of a single scene, just drinking it all in.

[taureliell.livejournal.com]

And on the second visit I noticed this elf...

So I had to go back again, just to make sure he was as totally gorgeous as I thought...and he was...and look what that led to...

[aleathiel.livejournal.com]

Ah, in which case I must confess: it was a certain blue-eyed hobbit who was my first love. And I still love, although I don't write him much. *uses icon*

The elf and the ranger were loves that developed over time.

[taureliell.livejournal.com]

Cute icon *smile*
But the long blond hair and blue eyes got me first
*sigh*
Then the dark curls and brown eyes...
*stares at Legolas TTT poster on wall*
Now, I'm just hopelessly smitten with both.

P.S. Have just climbed back onto chair having viewed Elflady's post of the black leather jacket...
*whimper*

[nimfaeriel.livejournal.com]

first, i'm so glad you enjoyed the fic *grins* isn't it breathtaking what she does with words???

to answer your question, i'd say almost anything by capella puts me in a trance-like state... i know there are other fics but i couldn't name one right now (don't have my recs on my parents' compi). i usually remember the feeling more clearly when a film or book causes it.

oh, i love pecos' "deconstructing legolas". it's not even really slash but i was lost to it the first time i read it, reread it quite a few times since. it sure is special when someone can make you feel such strong emotions... i consider myself blessed when i come across a fic or author like that.

well, now i think i'm going to read call of the sea again, it's been too long *smiles*
take care