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Letting Go
Sep. 15th, 2003 10:32 amEveryone is leaving. I mean, my friends and I are all heading out to Uni for the first time in the next few weeks. The first of my close friends goes tomorrow and then there will be progressively fewer and fewer of us left until I too leave.
I am looking forward to Uni. I mean, new people, new place, independence and I know that my studies will be really interesting. So, yeah, it will be great. I love new things.
But sometimes I love old things too. I'm not leaving for three weeks, so it seemes a strange time to get all wistful. And it's not homesickness. It's more the fact that my friends are leaving now and even though we'll all see each other at Christmas and can call and text and talk online and everything, there's no point in pretending we will. Because I know we will go off and do our own things and we will all love it and not think of each other.
Therein lies the problem. It will never be the same. We've been such a tight knit group and we're gonna come apart. I know I'll stay friends with a few, closest friends. But the group atmosphere will change. Even now it's gone really. Relationships breaking up so that they can be single when they get to college - a lack of faith in their ability to stay together. And to some extent it's happening with friendships too. We've been getting more and more distant all summer. I've hardly seen some people.
Maybe I just have to remember it as good while we were happy and now I have to learn to let go.
I am looking forward to Uni. I mean, new people, new place, independence and I know that my studies will be really interesting. So, yeah, it will be great. I love new things.
But sometimes I love old things too. I'm not leaving for three weeks, so it seemes a strange time to get all wistful. And it's not homesickness. It's more the fact that my friends are leaving now and even though we'll all see each other at Christmas and can call and text and talk online and everything, there's no point in pretending we will. Because I know we will go off and do our own things and we will all love it and not think of each other.
Therein lies the problem. It will never be the same. We've been such a tight knit group and we're gonna come apart. I know I'll stay friends with a few, closest friends. But the group atmosphere will change. Even now it's gone really. Relationships breaking up so that they can be single when they get to college - a lack of faith in their ability to stay together. And to some extent it's happening with friendships too. We've been getting more and more distant all summer. I've hardly seen some people.
Maybe I just have to remember it as good while we were happy and now I have to learn to let go.
